I am a first time author and this book was created from a journal I worked on for 14 years. It was suggested by my counselor to write it in a chronological way to keep track and deal with hurts, abandonment, bullying and death. I wanted other people in similar situations to benefit from my loss and trauma that has been such a big part of my life. I am a Christian and was led to share my experiences and my downfalls with you. I am not perfect as you will see and I did not always feel close to God but God loves an imperfect person and you can see that as well. I hope that through my experiences you can see that life can get better with God, and a lot of work.